I've sort of dropped off the radar again. It's not for lack of trying, but I'm about to begin an insane semester. I know that I ask too much of myself. I know I ask too much of the people who like to be around me to tolerate my behavior. As a dolphin living in a human world, it is difficult for me to share my emotions. I often bottle them up. I snap at idleness. I hate when people have time to do things that they want to do like travel or sleep. I judge people harshly. I am frustrated by my studies and not making enough progress with the LSAT, which remains my bad boyfriend. I think that not allowing myself to break is negatively impacting everything else.
One of my mantras, which I found on Twitter is "You are enough. It's incredible how enough you are." At first, I was confused by this statement. Enough of what? Who is enough? It all makes sense when you think about all the stuff we do daily. It's not just that we wake up, but that we do things for other people. We worry about not getting ahead or not achieving a certain goal. To me this quote means to be content. There really is no sense in worrying too much, because what will be will be. If it's right it will happen, if not, something else will come along. No matter what, you will carry on. You don't have a choice really. What is the alternative?
I recently went on a crazy exploration into astrology. As some of you may know, I am VERY Aquarius and it complements my Aries moon sign. I looked up which jobs work best towards certain zodiac signs. For Aquarians, the best jobs are things that help people, but allow the Aquarian to act independently. Jobs that are creative are also good. Nowhere close is lawyer, but writer is in the realm of possibility. Now I'm not going to base any real decisions off stars, but it's interesting to ponder anyway.
In other news, I'm very excited to start my Internship. :-)
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