If you've ever felt that you're failing at life then you know how I feel. When we are growing up we have all sorts of charts and expectations to measure whether or not we are progressing "normally." That of course all ends at college and then you're expected to get a job, get a house, get married, have a family and so on until you die.
I think a source of my frustration is that I've always been on top of that bell curve until I graduated college. Since then my life has fallen short of the imagined life I would have had. Now, it's nothing dramatic I'm grateful for my health, my job with mediocre pay, my family, my home, but my biggest mistake is comparing my life to my peers. I am a failure. I haven't published my book, in fact I didn't finish writing it. I just switched my career back on the track it should have been started four years ago. And for some unknown reason I cannot move out of my parents house. My life right now is like a coming of age movie except without the humor. Don't get me wrong, the ride has been great, but the biggest plague that prevents me from being happy is these expectations. I also realize that these thoughts are set by me, they are set by the standards society has placed upon me. The pressure I place on me is unfair and impossible. There is no script.
I recently went out with some friends and during a side unrelated conversation he said to me, "you're always going to find something wrong if you look for it. So just live." That is what I'm going to focus on in 2014. I know what I want and the things that in my control like my career, my social network, and my happiness I can change for the better.
2014 will be my year.
A 2013 Lookback
Wow what a crazy year and they only seem to be flying by faster and faster.
January: Started writing as a theater critic for Broadway World. The whole thing started because I wanted to see more shows and boy was that what I did this year. I've probably seen more than 50 shows and gotten to know some great people. Overall the experience has taught me how to manage my time. I also realize that I can no longer write well when I'm tired (unlike in college).
May: Crossed off Alaska from my bucket list. We saw real wild killer whales and other marine life. This was definitely a trip of a lifetime.
July: I got the call! I finally got a new job.
August: I quit working at the law firm :( but started my new job in Marketing!
Other achievements
Volunteered more than 60 hours at local non-profits.
Read 38 books
